So, here we are, another summer done gone by and what have I managed to accomplish? Well hmmm, tangible growth, something that can be seen or felt physically, not too much. The fences are still tore up, the pos trailer I live in is patched somewhat but still a dump, the garden is a mess and the chicken/rabbit hut still isn't finished.
So what is it I have managed to do this whole year? I'm still here. I finally broke even in August. I've managed to feed myself, even if it hasn't been optimal, I havent starved. The small herd of goats I have left are healthy, both the cows are bred and I managed to keep half the chickens alive. Rabbits did well for me this summer and I didn't lose any. So, now I can keep moving forward into the winter and dream of what I might be able to get done next year.
People ask me all the time why I keep going, why I do what I do even when it's difficult or what they consider impossible. This is what I tell them- As you get older, you find that life begins to wear you down. Everything that happens around you and to you- it all rolls up to be against you to steal away your energy, erode your dreams, to make you question things you wouldn't have given a second thought to when you were young and full of hope and dreams. Then, you have a choice. You can either give in and quit or you can fight it and keep going. You do it no matter what because if you quit, you're defeated and life doesn't have any real purpose left to it. There is no success in just existing with no purpose. Some kind of answer, eh? Most of the time I get the deer in the headlight look in response. I just laugh. Seriously, what else did they expect me to say?
So, I've got a few crochet throws finished and ready to go. In a few weeks, I will put one up for auction on the blog.
a Monet throw, 63x63 ($75) with shipping
The ragweed is in full bloom around the place and the seasonal allergies are hard to handle. The weed pulling and fall clean up is in full swing around here as is the garden work for the fall crops.
In between, there's some electrical work to be done in the pos trailer. I've lost 3 outlets so far. It just keeps piling up on me (sigh). Hate pouring good money in a dump that should be burned down and hauled off. Oh well........